A rebel without a clue.

Good morning pigeons and rats who abound below my very feet, eleven storeys up and as I go to collect my way to Wetherby. What was meant to be an 8am bus journey is a 7am on instead. Slept well, washed waterproof in Nikwax technical wash along with the two Finisterre bamboo base layers. Reset for another 3 nights in Wetherby. Just Wednesday at my mum's and then two more at Ruby's dog sitting. Back to Leeds on Saturday afternoon. Watered the tomatoes and turned on the Full Spectrum LED from 5 am for 4 hours. The seedlings which are showing look OK? I will need to give them more compost on Saturday I am certain? Had just two Rauchbier yesterday early evening and a portion of chips with curry sauce. Now on the X99 with Pain aux raisin  and hot chocolate from Pret . I am an hour early.

A night occupied by memories of another Chemin Saint Jacques, from Dieppe to Châtellerault via Rouen, Évreux, Dreux, Chartres, Tours and Châteaudun in early March 2014... There is just one town where I slept in a damp bed in a house where it was very cold which I can't place in my head and a misty morning leaving Évreux, but the rest of the time it was fine walking weather. People were very helpful - I stayed in plenty of homes and a couple of monasteries and at least two hotels: Vendóme I arrived so late as I'd walked around 10 kilometres in the wrong direction westerly, towards Le Mans, when I should have been going south west ... The shadow I saw pointing east if I hadn't seen that I'd have had no chance! As it was I walked from a diner on the main road towards a "train station" where I was desperate not to miss the bus from it. I was so late arriving I had to check into a hotel... 

Friday morning. Up at 5am. No hangover. Just 4 beers. All around 4% Abv. Fine morning, except for the lice like people around the train station tainting the beautiful dawn with their low level needs. Some quite drunk man couldn't get it that I was not cold wearing shorts. This reminded me of walking through a town near Albacete in the same shorts in close to zero and a local asking me if I was British and Muy frío was his statement into the morning. Back to Wetherby on the X99 @ 7am. I was hoping to be 'late' this morning, but I am 'early' once more. The bus is fairly busy. Less so than the X98 at 7:30am and I wasn't keen to wait until the 8am bus.

Friday was a good day. Even with the ale in the afternoon, in Harrogate, and later on at the Brewery with Jason and Nick. Lola is asleep by my side now, having eaten her breakfast and been outside for her morning toilet. It's another blue sky day. A fine one. I am dropping Lola off at Emma's before I go to the allotment for a while. On Sunday I am thinking of walking back to Leeds via Meanwood Valley, through Harewood and Eccup. As today will be a steady one - no alcohol at all - this is a good idea. Yesterday, when walking Lola into Harrogate, my left foot was playing up again - very painful. Are my shoes too tight? Is there an issue with the insoles in the Altbergs? I've a fresh pair for France. I've not really worn the Scarpa pair more than a couple of times since purchasing them as replacements for the Altbergs. Last time in France I fell with the Altbergs on so am not wearing them where there may be risks... ... The same question - what is my Goal in li...

Another day dawns - the 18,306 day, according to Google, since I popped out of mother's womb; silent and watchful. Of course she said I was very quiet (perhaps it's my fundamental aspect), but this could be her memory playing tricks? Inside I am constantly screaming! I seem silent and observant, but in my mind there is a hot debate continuing. The meaninglessness of all passing thoughts, ephemeral and vanishing, pointlessly cluttering the, mainly, water filled mind. Yesterday I collected Finley from Crossley Street School and took him to BAE, with Lola, for one of their Hot Chocolate drinks and then I took them to The Mews, where I had a half a Porter and he had a half of some lemonade - Lola had several biscuits and sat staring at Ian and Andy as they devoured Mini-Cheddars™. Then I brought him back for a dinner of chips, fish fingers and peas, where he asked at the end of his meal if he could be excused...

Yesterday I was suffering from nervous exhaustion - I cracked my left foot on the same table leg three times and stumbled, almost falling, through an hour and a half of walking Lola over to the East of Wetherby - beyond the A1(M) up Carr Lane and Sandbeck Lane - my feet went everywhere but where I would've liked them to go. Eventually, at 6pm, I retired to upstairs to read a few more harrowing chapters of Alone in Berlin  and turned off the light at 7. Unlike the previous night my sleep was only broken once, but when I finally awoke at 5am I didn't struggle but came downstairs to make a brew. A Budgeting Loan I applied for (£133.53) is in my account this morning so I've sent some to my mum and the remainder to the credit cards I owe. I am trying to be at zero again by the 28th March - prior to flying to Paris and a long walk away from Lola, mother, allotment, Wetherby, Leeds and War! So now I have £348 owing to the DWP which will come off my ESA until June/July - when I wil...

On the X98 at 7:50, passing Bank Top in Bardsey, on the way to the flat. Lola has Phil to walk her this morning as I've got the council over doing a couple of jobs at the flat: fixing the rusty and leaking soil pipe on the toilet and having a water sprinkler system installed. Had a quick once over in the greenhouse and I've definitely killed 5 tomato seedlings... Such as shame: they were looking so happy too. There was a frost last night, but the spinach I transferred to pots and terracotta piping seemed to survive. I sprinkled a little slug/snail pellets to give them a start. It's still too cold on an evening for potatoes? Are earlies more resistant to frost? I am definitely going to risk it over the weekend. I am wondering if I can transfer the tomato seedlings at the flat back to Wetherby after the work has been done this morning? They would do better at my mum's? It's been ages since I caught the peak time X98. It's busier than at any time I've known dur...