A rebel without a clue.

Selectively mute. Anxiety. Weighed down with fear. Was bullied at primary and secondary school, dislike playlike banter and insults.  Reinforces feeling of inadequacy. Being quiet won't hurt. I went to the Inkwell, part of Mind Leeds, in Chapel Allerton. Had a spot of food, coffee, listened to music and a little light comedy. Suddenly Felt I just had to leave. Had no one to talk to there. Same feeling of wanting to hide away. Didn't want to look in the eye of anyone there. Just travelled back on 48. No idea why this palpitating keeps coming back. I am threatened by this end.  Inkwell maybe does well for those knocking on heavens door. I might be closing in on that, but not yet: not right now. Some of the artwork on display is genuinely brilliant. Some is half hearted. Some delicate sketches of bodies and a few in a post-impressionistic style. I am en-route to Cornwall again. 3/4 months of slog and sun and sea too. Always a job needs doing in a tourist town. I'm bring...

Today was a successful Vegetarian day in Millie's Fresh and Organic . I guess I need to be in the mode of taking lush technicolor images to highlight the exciting array of reds, yellows, greens: the multicolour of veg. However I made a Roasted Red Pepper and Humus filled Foccacia, 2 varieties of Fritatta, TVP(soy mince) Bolognaise and a lush Potato, Courgette, Chickpea and Roquefort soup... This afternoon I took inspiration from some juicy Navel oranges mum brought me from Kirkgate Market and created a lusty Jaffa Cake! Ingredients: 300g 55% Dark Chocolate, 50g Ground Almonds, 125g Ground Roasted Hazelnuts, 250ml Double cream, the juice and zest of a Navel orange, 8 separated eggs, 300g organic SR flour and 250g unsalted butter. Thursday I will fill with orange buttercream I think!

It is a while since I covered myself in Blog. Recently (12/11/2010) I started working for Natalie, Geoff and Cath @ Millie's Fresh & Organic as their resident chef Monday to Friday. I am trying to develop the scope of the kinds of food they have offered and create a trade with a more diverse clientele than I do currently. Tucked away on Vicar Lane , Leeds the emporium offers a great selection of vegan, organic, ethical and fair trade products from both local and far away. From this variety I am able to create a vast array of balanced salads, interesting and value-for-money meals, vegan and raw cakes, homemade and inspiring dainties, etc, etc (you'll just have to pop in on any day to see what I am working hard to produce). I find myself back @ 97 Whitehall Waterfront 4 years on from when I went off to YHA Afriston and a few years with the YHA and a chance to develop some skills with Jean-Claude Etile and other important persons in the vast world of catering. It is qu...