A rebel without a clue.

Two hours at the allotment: it's waterlogged in places. I went in a bit deep in places. Fingers crossed that we have a drought until Autumn now! Enough rain for a year! Started forking the section by the gate: ideal for the early potatoes as it's been fallow 3 years: lots of dock, nettles and buttercups; and tons of worms. Heading back on the X98 to attend the alcohol counselling session with Forward Leeds at 15:30. I'm hungry so going to head to Manjit's Kitchen in Kirkgate. Changed out of my muddy boots. Taking them to the flat to clean and treat them. Ideally I'd like to change my track pants for a pair of shorts.  Next visit to the allotment on Wednesday as Andy's going up then too. The weekend looks good too. Mum's got an appointment date, 5th March, for her knee operation. Perhaps I could go away for a week prior to then as I'll probably be more necessary than I was prior? *** I am waiting in the Light Surgery for the alcohol counselling session an...

Those folks who are my friends don't really understand me at all. But do they need to? I felt barren again after they shot their opinions at me. Depression is something that other people do to me. They're the beings that undermine positivity. They're all around me, but I choose to listen to their angry words. And does it matter what they think and say? They've their own problems, which I have no concept of, to bring them down? 

Another windy night. I awoke and was unable to return to Lalaland, laying there I heard Adrian rage around 6 am, perhaps he couldn't sleep either. Sunday was a wash out. I walked Lola between downpours, but in the afternoon there was no such break. I don't want to drench her, and she gets a lot of exercise normally. Emma picked her up around 3 and she sat on Emma's back seat like a human staring out of the window - she loves journeys... Watched some very average Catherine Cookson drama, which was tediously long, and made more so by adverts every 14 minutes, with mother. She's addicted to those North Eastern clichéd narratives. But it helped see out the nasty wet Sunday. Stayed away from the Mews and BAE(Dark Hot Chocolate)for a day. Got Forward Leeds appointment this afternoon so this will be two dry days on the bounch. Spent £2 on bus fare. Waited 10 minutes for the bus at 8 am - it was pissing it down. Had scrambled eggs for breakfast and am considering a walk up to t...