A rebel without a clue.

The morning began with a sense of deep mental exhaustion, following much-needed restorative sleep. The desire for another quiet day was strong, but a powerful realization quickly emerged: this quiet, this peace, is "always an option." The understanding solidified that hope isn't a future destination on the Camino, but something to be found "here and now." A profound self-confrontation then took place, acknowledging an "addiction to guilt" and recognizing it as a fundamental aspect of the "mental health" journey. This guilt had perpetuated a feeling of "always being unsatisfied," despite the deep knowing of inherent completeness – "I am complete already" and "I don't want for anything." The entire "life struggle" was vividly painted as a "thorn and thistle path." The roots of this path were then bravely illuminated: the "subtle wars" constantly present in the childhood home at 42 ...