Freed by silent means.

Such a fool. Trying to operate like a robot. Feeling always wrong, but carrying on in a way sure to trip me up. All the clumsy steps I took, bumps of this fragile mind, never seeing the reality beyond the rules taught to confuse my essence. This will not ever make me operate true, but it becomes alright to look else where for the Truth.

My death nearly became the result of this ingenious demon telling tall tales hollow and filled with brackish sand to choke a final breath rattling where once I had tonsils.

Too many voices, who also questioned the often repeated lies, can not keep all hope chained facing inward blind of the light. Give me options because it is only my death! Please me if it is only my life to know how to tick without guilt and unmanifesting fear. Get thee behind me Satan: you only lie because that is all you know! I forgive your wild trespass against my rational sigh.

Deep and ancient is that calm; quiet is what I often misplaced during the rages in my ignorance. Where I could not connect I would not now fear to find a bastion free of walls, doors, chains and locks that stood open to allow my graceful flight.

There is always something good to come if the manacles rust, corrode and collapse with the mind just intact. Patience frees and presence reminds that we can always choose again the route into awareness. Enlightened as the cave is filled, trodden and forgotten by eternity.

Climbing out through the nostrils and dumb open mouth. We were fooled and our ears duped by consciousness into dreaming a way into the feral body. There is such resistance I fear this awakening was inside a cell too small to see the real divisions and diversions existing within.

Now taking to wings I can float without the distraction - being honest in word and deed. It has taken time to reach crossroads pointing ahead to the same or turning for relief with my soul delivered - repaired and uncovered.

Time departs for me to forever soar, silently, and hurt no more.

What is the point of my existence? Must be off again to gain needed insight before first ADHD assessment in June.