Eden is gone.

Those forgotten happy thoughts

And those elusive happy dreams

That is the way out of this - I heard you say

Or so it simply seems

For those who can never see it

I feel

Glued to a simple seldom questioned singular thought.

Alone?

But I like alone: I think this yet reverse it often.

Seams split and unpacking at extremes, truthfully.

Can I tell? Why can't you taste this sourness?

The body occupies a strip of land at the end of time, battered

Assaulted without hesitation nor finger precious lingering

This is 2014 so all falls foul and we are deeply mired souls

Nightmares do guide; coming along this hideous way

Death soon will lead me beyond the hatred in man.

To think I actually thought I'd run away?
But to find the truth ...

And then return to rebuild Eden to discover only lies

Antagonism of my self is the only result found

Distraction doesn't come unstuck from the page

Flames should burn it black and finally.

Broken isn't so bad.

Forcing me to look up another path

Time! I used to see you as my enemy

But I now turn to a different cog

Tangled up in the roads walked

Seeing in me probable cause.

Now swallowing another 100mg

Down and waiting for lights out.

Reneged on Zopiclone and Mel

Turning the pages on the Doors

It awakes in me a memory of youth

What was the error I made before

Pissing out another wasted day?

Wait on time and sustain truth

A little while and stick to it

Anti me in depressants until called.

So how long have I seen myself as

J. Alfred and not D. Joseph?

Less than the attendant lords

Never sent for from the sides

Incompatible with myself and, 

Nevermind other selves, strange

So very sinister to face these eyes

Realising two ways can never accord

Being either one or another

Sane or insane

Truthful or blatantly lying

Fearing this prism and

Fearful of the monster

Reality, heaving heavily.