Prologue to Le Puy and beyond. Part 12.
Well there are only a few days left until my pilgrimage begins in earnest. I've been keeping away from this blog to put a little room between my convulsive negative feelings, dwelling within my past and struggling with my turgid mental system. I am feeling enthused more than I have been for a very long time; by looking forward and with help from the various positive inputs, since the pilgrimage idea popped into my head, including Prozac, planning, therapy and karma. I am making a conscious effort to think differently. All of this may be helping; but I think I am stating the obvious.
In the last month I have been helped from an unexpected source and I am completely thankful of my brilliant and selfless cousin; a being whom has a million senses open and aiding with a fundamentally true understanding and he has supported me with real brotherly love and engagement.
On Wednesday, during my analysis visit, I felt it would be useful to try to explain how I perceive the world: so I tried to develop some of my mental conception of entropy as I feel we live in the midst of destructive decay. On the positive side the GP I have been visiting in the Wetherby surgery has a great bedside manner: I am going away but I am not unwanted if/when I return. She asked me for some detail about my life so I wrote her my life story. Maybe in that narrative I can explain what has/is happening to me?
Perhaps I am giving off a positive air now so strangers are happier to relate to me, even when I interrupt a meeting held in a café. I feel engaged with the individuals whom frequent Filmore & Union. Twice I have overheard a conversation and added a dimension to the content. Whether it was wanted or not: I don't care less and I am sure I seem better. Truthfully there isn't any benefit to be offered a free coffee by only stamping my frequent coffee addiction card once per visit and not once per coffee. They don't base their generosity on my willingness to spend money on numerous coffee between 8am and 9am do they?
My rucksack and sleeping bag have arrived. I have confirmed I will be meeting the other pilgrims on the 22nd May. I need a couple more items prior to departure and will pick up a couple of items once in Le Puy. I could stay with a CS'er for a few days in a village north west of Le Puy - Boisset. Will decide on the 22nd and let Peter know. Nervous of WWOOFing: 'Daniel get over it! All I need do is catch a train to Bas-Monistrol and his partner would 'rendez vous' pour moi'.
Selling some unwanted clothes on eBay was a good plan as so far all the prerequisites for the walk have not forced me into debt. All the Hungarian wine has gone too. Yes it is twelve days away, but it is already happening ...
... what has become of us truthful beings? We have given into false greed and expectant need. Two false propositions. Vanity makes the rich richer and yet the poor want whatever they see the rich having. All that glitters is not gold, but all that we must have makes us ever more basic.
In the last month I have been helped from an unexpected source and I am completely thankful of my brilliant and selfless cousin; a being whom has a million senses open and aiding with a fundamentally true understanding and he has supported me with real brotherly love and engagement.
On Wednesday, during my analysis visit, I felt it would be useful to try to explain how I perceive the world: so I tried to develop some of my mental conception of entropy as I feel we live in the midst of destructive decay. On the positive side the GP I have been visiting in the Wetherby surgery has a great bedside manner: I am going away but I am not unwanted if/when I return. She asked me for some detail about my life so I wrote her my life story. Maybe in that narrative I can explain what has/is happening to me?
Perhaps I am giving off a positive air now so strangers are happier to relate to me, even when I interrupt a meeting held in a café. I feel engaged with the individuals whom frequent Filmore & Union. Twice I have overheard a conversation and added a dimension to the content. Whether it was wanted or not: I don't care less and I am sure I seem better. Truthfully there isn't any benefit to be offered a free coffee by only stamping my frequent coffee addiction card once per visit and not once per coffee. They don't base their generosity on my willingness to spend money on numerous coffee between 8am and 9am do they?
My rucksack and sleeping bag have arrived. I have confirmed I will be meeting the other pilgrims on the 22nd May. I need a couple more items prior to departure and will pick up a couple of items once in Le Puy. I could stay with a CS'er for a few days in a village north west of Le Puy - Boisset. Will decide on the 22nd and let Peter know. Nervous of WWOOFing: 'Daniel get over it! All I need do is catch a train to Bas-Monistrol and his partner would 'rendez vous' pour moi'.
Selling some unwanted clothes on eBay was a good plan as so far all the prerequisites for the walk have not forced me into debt. All the Hungarian wine has gone too. Yes it is twelve days away, but it is already happening ...
... what has become of us truthful beings? We have given into false greed and expectant need. Two false propositions. Vanity makes the rich richer and yet the poor want whatever they see the rich having. All that glitters is not gold, but all that we must have makes us ever more basic.
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