Ruminating
On trains the opposite is true. We eat and drink everything, or most of it, once we get on board and the train rattles along we have an energy spike that I conclude leaves us bored again and makes the journey more anxious. I am subject to this same failure. But I now conclude it might be best to get on board knackered and fall into a makeshift sleep?
The crisis of the job which brings me to the peak of anxiety and frustration is the fall out it leaves in my mind for a while after. It's some kind of shock wave. I suffer shock waves. I will return to bills, filth and noise and this is normal for most people.
Fecking fecking fecking
Fecking
Hen do at Leeds station
Leaving for Scotland
Seems so much fun
All cheeriness and smiles
All together...
Between you and me the Costa on Albion place is resident to Turks and possibly poles too? While I spent money on groceries not fill on coffee as I'm friendless. I'm in Leeds. I may stay in Leeds too. I can feel ale. I must not fail.
My life was ruined in education in England. The kind of education system that rewards indoctrinated regurgitated learning, but cares not for the individual and doesn't look to advise to help one prosper in a profession. English degree 2:2: what can I do with that? Does it prove me snarlingly stupid?
Banks and governments.
The local chain of command and the national central directive of the financial are all in this together. If welfare don't cover your living requirements then where are you meant to find it? And if you get paid less than you can survive on due to huge 'everyday' bills - then what? Everyone should refuse to work for nothing.
When one is content to read then one passes up the option of commenting on the passing days. However it is equally true that there isn't anything to say as life is paused while embedded in the page and in other world we are lingering. I think reading almost prevents reality from become too real to deal with. I imagine great physicist don't get chance to read fiction as it would mean their minds wouldn't be focused at the great equations telling us the root and branch of the universe?
The crisis of the job which brings me to the peak of anxiety and frustration is the fall out it leaves in my mind for a while after. It's some kind of shock wave. I suffer shock waves. I will return to bills, filth and noise and this is normal for most people.
Fecking fecking fecking
Fecking
Hen do at Leeds station
Leaving for Scotland
Seems so much fun
All cheeriness and smiles
All together...
Between you and me the Costa on Albion place is resident to Turks and possibly poles too? While I spent money on groceries not fill on coffee as I'm friendless. I'm in Leeds. I may stay in Leeds too. I can feel ale. I must not fail.
My life was ruined in education in England. The kind of education system that rewards indoctrinated regurgitated learning, but cares not for the individual and doesn't look to advise to help one prosper in a profession. English degree 2:2: what can I do with that? Does it prove me snarlingly stupid?
Banks and governments.
The local chain of command and the national central directive of the financial are all in this together. If welfare don't cover your living requirements then where are you meant to find it? And if you get paid less than you can survive on due to huge 'everyday' bills - then what? Everyone should refuse to work for nothing.
When one is content to read then one passes up the option of commenting on the passing days. However it is equally true that there isn't anything to say as life is paused while embedded in the page and in other world we are lingering. I think reading almost prevents reality from become too real to deal with. I imagine great physicist don't get chance to read fiction as it would mean their minds wouldn't be focused at the great equations telling us the root and branch of the universe?
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