I decide

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In the bowels of the Marriott no one ever hears you scream.
Gucci init, LV init or emptiness init?
Remember there is a reason for stepping back from the brink.
Remember to decide.
You decide. I decide. It's ours to decide.
I don't want to die without at-least making decisions about me: ones that appease me; fuck all the rest.

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